if you embrace this then Ah yes, you will feel at peace friend , instead of feeling in peaces

if for some untold reason a friend, a good friend, would sleep with one of my ex's
well then
instead of brewing anger in cauldrons of discontent i would simply step aside and bow to the powers of karma, to the mysticism of 'what goes around comes around'
i would chuckle and point my friend in the right direction, "south is where YOU want to go friend"
a sordid feeling of ownership PLAGUES the men of this world. "SHE'S MINE! I SLEPT WITH HER! NO ONE CAN HAVE HER"

ah but how you hurt yourself you foolish fiend of ownership.
she is not yours, she is no ones, she belongs to the universe, just like we, created from stardust, were once suns and stars.

can anyone truly own a star?
nay
this world, this energy, each one of us is in constant motion, dancing with the Wu Li Masters.
dancing the meaning of life
and maybe Patrick is the only friend i have who would consider this obtuse view on reality
did you ever learn where GOLD came from?
ahh now theres a mind boggling factoid
look it up
and consider
if gold comes from the collapsing stars then where do we come from?
back to the Ex's, we label them so.
X marks the spot, marks the end
they also mark treasure maps, and just because you've plundered, hopefully learned, and moved on does not mean that no one else can discover the secrets found under that X
so do not be jealous when word spreads like wild fire that someone you use to fuck, someone you might have loved is dancing the dance of meaning with another man or women. we are hear to learn ladies and gentlemen, and if you treat your sexual and emotional endeavors like textbooks then jealousy might crumple away like old pages, do you not give your books away? or do you keep them dusty on your book shelf.. a prize on your mantle?
re opeing them from time to time to try and find the joy you use to have when you originally flipped through their chapters.

LET GO!

they are no longer yours and you are no longer there's, 2 divided by 2 equals 1 !
and as i have preached before we are all on a journey, and you can only learn so much from one book, one human being!


take a deep breath, listen to the drone of this Gothic singers, raise your gaze and baptize yourself in this new knowledge, going forth with a smile, a walking stick and a yearning to LEARN!
FUCKING LEARN!
we must learn!
we must experience and see new places, meet new people, test yourself

think of it as school as getting your bachelors, but your getting your degree on the world
write essays of the mind, orals deep conversation, group projects with new friends
and mid terms re-assessing your life
go to Jerusalem go to Peru, go to Scotland, go to France, go to china go to Russia
imagine the wealth of knowledge

in Australia there is such a thing called a 'walk-about' where one will walk for days surviving on his or her own, discovering themselves... do this on a grand scale, this is your life!
imagine sitting down for tea with EVERY SINGLE HUMAN BEING ON THIS EARTH
all 6.45 billion of them
what would they tell you?
shit empathize
think of your mind as a vast library just waiting for new books to fill its vast hallways
do you not want to experience?
do you not want to let others experience?
and if everything you touched or saw or learned was exclusively yours, then no one would learn at all
so let it go, let what you have experienced pass on to other eyes and hands.
you might have loved her, or him, but do not put shackles on their exploration, on YOUR exploration
find joy in the fact that they are improving themselves by experience new things and new people
if you embrace this then Ah yes, you will feel at peace friend , instead of feeling in peaces
feel your ridiculous cares,fears,worry dissolve into the atmosphere
feel a warm love cover you like a multi colored tapestry of beauty
hopefully this silly boys speal will make you appreciate the sparkle in a strangers eyes
we are all humans and compared with the vastness of the universe we are but ants, watch a colony of ants walk in every direction across your driveway.. searching for something
and that's what we are
star dust ants dancing with the wu li masters in this ballroom we call reality, each expressing their own meaning of life,

given the chance, i would drink tea with you all