your too cool i hate you

I need to invoke the spirit of Carlyle Williams to save my plagued mind!

i feel my stone cold resolve dissolving away into the form of a lonely puppy.

Why do i fucking think about her!? like a lot.

i play the phone game too.. sometimes when I'm drinking I'll grab my phone out of my pocket flip it open then flip it closed and put it away.. constantly .. until i drink to much and i don't flip it closed..

that's when the magic happens ..lol

even the cleverest one-liner drunk texts are never in good taste.

i wana pounce on her like a rabid wolf and bite her neck true blood style.


it's ok though guys.. seriously don't worry, once i move downtown in 3 weeks all this pent up sexual frustration will be unleashed upon many beautiful young things...hopefully...

until then FUCK YOU AND GET OUT OF MY HEAD YOU BEAUTIFUL, LONG LEGGED, THIN, LION-HAIRED, HIPSTER, FASHIONISTA, INDIE, ALPHA FEMALE, WITH PERFECT STYLE, AND EVEN BETTER INSECURITIES.
I WANA GO DOWN ON YOUR TEENAGE-LIKE REBELLIOUS JOIE DE VIVRE

maybe it took 20 months for me to get over you even though i called it quits.

in hindsight though i know i only love the idea i have create of you. we would never work out, we're so similar and that makes it worse because it tricks me into thinking that maybe Carlyle Williams is full of shit and i should go on my own journey of past love re-discovery. the past is gone, it's something to be learned from and not repeated, you gotta look forward and the reason i keep looking back is because i see no special someone in my near future.
you were special
you are special
it looks like your having a blast, enjoying life, having sex, creating memories, smiling and dancing
:)

i'm having fun too.. more then you can imagine ( i went to india for Christ-sake and burning man is around the corner).. but still i wouldn't mind a warm somebody in my bed at the end of the night.

BIEN CE SA TABARNAKE!